March 28, 2012
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reflecting on your complexity…
It’s said that I lack support out here. But I lack more than just support….
I haven’t felt safe since I moved out here… and although I find some solace in being alone, each time I am near you, I feel like I can finally be myself, safe under the protection of someone who cares for me in a deeper way than I understand… someone who would never hurt me… The emotional sacrifices made, the “what ifs” and “could be’s” all ignored… Something I would never want to jeopardize exists between us, and although it seems impossible to attach a name to it, I know it’s all I need to get through the times I face ahead, for you have always been here for me and continued to support me, never judging me. If ever I found out that I had limited time to live, I would choose to spend that time with you, for all of the good that you’ve made me see in my life.
As Celine put it…
For all those times you stood by me
for all the truth that you made me see
for all the joy you brought to my life
for all the wrong that you made rightYou’re the one who held me up,
never let me fall
You’re the one who saw me through
through it all…You saw the best there was in me
lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ’cause you believed
I’m everything I am….You were always there for me
the tender wind that carried me
a light in the dark
shining your love into my life.You’ve been my inspiration
through the lies you were the truth
my world is a better place because of you…You make me want to become a stronger, better, more independent person… and that’s good enough for me.
Thank you. I will never forget all that you have taken me through.
